Desperately searching for someone willing and CAPABLE of helping me with the following:

Over the last several years I have fruitlessly been searching for someone willing (and most importantly capable) of reprogramming my mind/subconscious/psyche etc. to erase all traces of masculinity and rebuild me in my preferred feminine persona.

I'm wanting to display purely feminine mannerisms and to only be able to access feminine thought processes etc.

I'm not wanting to be able to 'choose' whether or not to act feminine or masculine depending on the situation I'm in at any given point, but to be 'locked in' to my female self.

I will point out that I don't have any desire to go down the full surgical SRS route, and that I would classify myself as a 'shemale' in the making.

Currently, I am in conflict within myself as although I much prefer to be 'dressed' and present as feminine/female I am racked with the guilt/shame and embarrassment that would befall myself, my family & friends etc. these feelings of guilt & shame are what are preventing me from being able to take the route I desire under my own steam.

Therefore I am looking for someone to alter my subconscious at a base level. Initially planting the seeds which will continually multiply and reinforce the new commands whilst simultaneously erasing the masculine thought processes that are causing my conflict and compel me to FULLY embrace my feminine persona without the attached stigma/shame/guilt/embarrassment.

I do realise that if this process is indeed possible, that it will not be an overnight process, but will take a lengthy period of time. I don't have a problem with this as it would also give my family & friends time to accept the gradual changes occurring so it wouldn't be so much of a shock.

I have scoured the internet looking for files to address the situation I am in, but 99.999% of the 'so called' hypnosis files are basically just porn fodder claiming to make you a cock craving/sucking sissy rather than being an actual useful resource.

I'm happy and willing to give 'creative control' so you can decide how far to 'push' things, but I really don't have any set limits on just how feminine I can be programmed to be (on a scale of 1-10, 11 would be fantastic! LOL)

Also, once a trance state is established, a series of tasks etc. could be implanted to ascertain the effectiveness of the hypnosis.

One stipulation that I would have is that any reprogramming would be irreversible, reinforcing & stronger than second nature.

I do know that this is a lot to ask, but it is a route that I have seriously desired to take for several decades, but my feelings of shame & guilt have, and are, preventing me from being the person I know that I am.

I apologise for the length of the message and I look forward to hearing back from you (preferably to say yes, you can help) and ask any further questions